My mother was providing care for both my father and my grandmother who were elderly.
My mother fell ill and received a prognosis of limited remaining time.
My father moved into a care facility.
Due to a fall, my father developed dementia from brain damage.
When I visited the facility, my father noticed me, and his face became filled with a smile like blooming flowers.
No one assisted with caregiving. I took care of my mother and father alone. At that time, what I often listened to in the car was tofubeats’ “Koromogae” (Changing Clothes). Tears flowed every time I heard it, and I couldn’t help it. The latter part of the video below captures that moment.
Even the cherished memories
Are now completely unknown.
Countless stars are being poured
Passing through the night in the midst of light.
Seeing many loves and illusions
Trying to remember yesterday’s dreams.
Tofubeats “Koromogae”
My father, who developed dementia. Even the cherished memories are now completely unknown. However, when he sleeps at night, numerous stars pour down upon him, and the night passes enveloped in light. In dreams, it’s possible to revisit many past experiences.
May my father find happiness. May my mother also find happiness. At that time, every time I listened to this song, I prayed so.
Now, neither my father nor mother is in this world. My grandmother is also no longer here. All the memories everyone cherished are now completely unknown.
However, everyone is living in my heart. Though everyone has passed away, after their deaths, It’s strange how I feel them even closer.
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